Recently, a close family friend of mine, who is also a Type 1 Diabetic, mentioned to me that Diabetes was affecting his personality. I honest to blog have never put those two things together...and I'm not sure why I haven't! It completely and totally makes perfect sense.
Diabetes has changed my personality. Diabetes also changes my personality when my sugar is low or high. That's a fact that is undeniable. We can't choose the mood or pick our personality when our sugar drops. I know one moment I can be tying a hand towel around my neck & flying around the kitchen like I'm Superwoman.
The next moment I'm grabbing scissors and threatening to cut people while spittles of anger fly from my mouth. The same thing happens when my sugar is high but not to the same extent. When my sugar is high I typically turn into Superbitch, not Superwoman.
I can remember being a 16 year old carefree, happy, giggly, positive, hopeful girl. I would find humor, joy & fun in everything. I was rarely angry, there wasn't any reason. I was only sad when a boy I liked didn't like me. I wasn't mean unless given a reason to be. I wasn't more moody or tired than any other teenager.
I wasn't sick.
That quickly changed.
Now, 26 years later, I'm moody at a moment's notice. I can experience 42 different moods in 42 seconds. I'm angry to the point of destruction. Sometimes I scare myself. I'm beyond mean & can tear a person down with my verbal assault. I'm so tired from trying to survive every moment of every day. I'm a total bitch who can make a person emotionally unstable. I, myself, become emotionally unstable.
I am sick.
That isn't quickly changing.
Diabetics are prone to many types of personality changes, yet, people do not really talk about them. These personality changes are typically the result of glucose levels changing. When your blood glucose levels become dangerously high or low, a normal behaving person can become angry, hostile, combative, silly, stupid or confused. The brain is not getting the normal glucose that it needs to function properly.
Not only does this happen at the time of uncontrolled glucose levels, it also seeps over into constant life behaviors. Personality changes are just one of the many things that a Diabetic has to deal with, accommodate & learn to live with every day.
Here is a reminder of some of the wonderful things a Diabetic deals with on a daily basis:
A craving for sweets
Cold hands and feet
Outbursts of temper
Keep this in mind when the Diabetic in your life gets bitchy. Keep in mind that it's not an easy thing to have a chronic invisible disease. So, please understand, and most of all, forgive.